Well, I really outdid myself last night. I sent a flurry of angry texts to my therapist, I was angry because I asked her a question that she was being evasive on and then outright not replying to me ( cos texting/calling is for crisis only) and that just made me angrier, so I went for gold and told her I hated her, that me being furious was all her fault and I quit. - she still ignored me lol

This morning, I'm not angry anymore. I feel calmer than I have for 3 days. I don't even feel sorry for what I said, or guilty. I feel calm and relaxed and relief. Which is really unusual cos normally I'd be feeling awful for having been such a b-itch.

She knows I hate being ignored, that when she does it, it only enrages me. Why continue to do it?
I feel at peace about quitting. I've taken her number out my phone so that I can't contact her.

I was truly vile last night. A spoiled brat. Horrible. Yet I do not care an ounce today. I actually feel pretty good. What's going on? Normally I'd be crippled with guilt by now.