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Old Sep 06, 2014, 06:40 AM
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Thanks for your valuable input and advice.

It's interesting reactions of anger were mentioned twice. I wondered why I was feeling angry there lately, and since my therapist and I are working on anger, I started to explore my feelings about it, but that's when the panic attacks started and the memories of my mother surfaced. I took some Ativan, and have been able to go back there since (to read but not participate).

However, I can't get my mind wrapped around that someone would not even acknowledge their behavior/have no insight into what they are dong after this has been pointed out to them repeatedly, and most recently, directly. In my experience, most people will at least acknowledge something like this, and at least be cognizant of how presenting false information can effect others. That's what is most triggering to me about this.

I know I'm overreacting, and mostly because there is enough diversity in the group to balance out the inaccuracies. I've seen many people there offer corrections to inaccurate information, including something I had been mistaken about, and it's usually well-received. Violet Blue, I can see how this could be dangerous if it was someone with a strong voice in a group who others followed for advice and guidance due to lack of their own knowledge on the subjects, but fortunately, this isn't something that is happening.

My therapist told me that as a child, my mother gaslighted me. I think the effect of that experience overweighs my ability to ignore the situation. I was hoping that there was a policy so that posts like that could be reported and addressed. At the very least, I had hoped general reminders could be sent or posted as stickies, but more likely this is something I'll have to deal with through avoidance. Many of us have our own triggers to deal with; unfortunately, maybe they can't all be addressed formally?

Maybe when I'm in a better place things will be different. I wish I could just delete this whole experience, but it's too late now.
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