Thanks, everyone, for saying I am brave. It is nice to hear that!

soccerMom, I've been in therapy with this T for about a year and four months. For much of that time I've been seeing him twice a week.

I'm glad I posted this here because this morning I find that my brain has already gone into "don't believe it - that didn't happen" mode. Seeing my post and the responses is proof to me that it really did happen. It is amazing to observe the tricks that my mind goes through and to see the extent to which I have such a hard time letting love in.