I am sorry you have been through those things I would suggest that you don't go to your father or anyone else who is likely to just abuse you. People from on-line forums don't know you properly so anything nasty they say doesn't count either imo. I meant ask a female friend you have? and more about how you come across socially and what makes you appear more 'friends material' to women and not bf . What you could work on to seem more sexually attractive to girls, and any general little mistakes you are making or things you could improve on. You have to pressure someone to be honest I think, and let them know it is to help you understand yourself better and you wont be offended etc..

Do you think you find it hard in social situations or when chatting a girl up? x