I agree with almeda24fan, Sherryanne.

You mentioned in your post in the PTSD Forum,

"I need better professional help, I need a lot. every day is a struggle and right now I just no longer know what to do."

This tells me your therapist might not be helping you by being your friend. Maybe you need to think about seeing someone else? That way you can remain friends and get the help you need.

And again, like almeda said "Just some friendly thoughts..."

Take care,

Petunia