Man,money's not a problem,thanks for the offer.It is that i am emotianally dead and have been bleeding the hearts of my friends and loved ones.I got through some very difficult years too.Now my hate is what gets me through,hate for the world around me,hate for the damage they did to me.Anyway,i will go to a doctor this or the next week,even if i have to go alone.
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o you go to a doctor?
Rebel.