I have been fairly numb and oblivious to most everything but my own family and close friends with our own crisis here. I am unaware of what has been happening on the board. I want to say though that I have a problem with the keyboard on my Dell laptop and now have connected an external keyboard which works. A few times in chat I wrote jibberish because letters were missing. Then I had to get right off without being able to explain to anyone what was happening baecause half of my danged letters were not working. I hope that didn't offend. And there was a certain P.m. that was also gibberish. embarrassed me. I am very numb and have crawled deep inside and am struggling to stay present. I spent time with one of my friends, the father of the sick kiddo last night. At least it was a reality check. I just kept saying it sucks and it ain't fair. I love those guys so much and that child has suffered. It is also true that she has lived each day fully, tasting, trying everything that came her way. I hope she has the chance to keep doing so. All of this to say that I am sorry if there are things going on here to which I am oblivious. I need for this to be a safe, supportive place. I have been reading but not posting much. Fell asleep yesterday around 6:30 as I was trying to read posts and stayed in bed all night. Please take care of eachother. We can make a big difference to eachother just by caring.