I dont know why I did it. I sat there in front of my psychiatrist and said I felt fine. He was thrilled to hear I said the meds might be finally working. I think maybe I just didn't have the energy to talk about how I felt and I guess I just thought if I can act like im fine that I'll eventually start to believe it myself or... I dont know. I came out and my partner looked at me and said "you just sat there and lied to him. You're not fine at all" but I just told him to shut up. I snapped quite nastily at him which I never like to do. I just felt like saying well if you're that bothered you should have said something. Has anyone else ever done this? I feel like I should sit down and admit I lied and that I just wanted to believe I was okay just for a little bit... I feel like an idiot and have no idea why I said I was fine!