I actually have a really good, patient, capable therapist. Anger doesn't phase her, I don't think. It feels like every week is up and down with me. I am really struggling with the closeness/attachment versus the limits of the relationship. I'm constantly reacting to it, in fear of it as well as trying to get thru the other trauma stuff at the same time.

I don't hate her. Sometimes I actually love her... or at least like her very much. Am I definite that I want to quit? No, Yes, Maybe... lol I'm so changeable. I'm just so tired of the up and down rollercoaster ride that is therapy. I am terrified of the attachment and I am overwhelmed with it all. I need a lot of outside support, on average once per week I speak to her outside session. What I really need is 2 sessions per week but I can't afford it, so that isn't an option.