This is my first real post about my problems I'm dealing with. I have had major depression since childhood, I am now 53. I also suffer from Fibromyalgia and CFS, which are both flared up and making me so sick right now.

My mother, who I adored, died June 15. I just cannot get a grip on my roller coaster of emotions. I started seeing a therapist 3 wks ago (finally) and I am on Prozac (not helping much). Have an appt in Oct. w a new psychiatrist to possibly change meds. All the psych docs are so booked up, that was the soonest I could get an appt.

How do I keep on going, stay motivated, stop the negative thinking everyday? Some days are better than others of course. But the last 3 days have been torture mentally and physically. The feeling of just wanting to curl up and hide is getting stronger by the hour. I don't know how to keep up the fight.

I have been just existing for the last 10 yrs or so, absolutely miserable. Getting started w the therapist took a huge effort on my part, but I am not sure I can do this. I need some inspiration, motivation, or whatever you want to call it. Help please.