View Single Post
 
Old Sep 06, 2014, 04:03 PM
kororain's Avatar
kororain kororain is offline
Member
 
Member Since: May 2014
Location: USA
Posts: 409
Quote:
Originally Posted by HazelGirl View Post
I don't know. I have always seen myself as "above" that type of thing.


I don't know. Maybe what I feel is extreme is actually normal for other people who aren't regularly numb to their emotions?
Right, yeah. I know what you mean. I feel that way lately too and when I'm freaking out emotionally, I feel like such a weirdo. Once it's over (a couple days later), I can kind of go back over it and understand what happened.

For instance: Earlier this week I started crying because I was hungry. Who does that? Weirdo!

But when I tracked back to the ACTUAL situation, what happened was...

1. I was stressed at work.
2. I was trying to think of someone to talk to, to talk me off the ledge of anxiety.
3. I wanted to talk to my old friends from my old work, but one is on paternity leave and unavailable, the other well... I'm trying to avoid talking to him because Him + Me = Unhealthy
4. Resisted talking to these boys...
5. Wanted to go to Dairy Queen for a chocolate dipped in chocolate cone instead.
6. On a diet. Put the kibosh on DQ.
7. Thought about calling other friends, couldn't for various reasons.
8. Stuck in traffic and just wanted dinner. So hungry.
9. Tears.

So I think it was just that all my old coping mechanisms were unavailable and/or I chose to avoid them... so that was really why the tears. Not just that I was hungry. Even though that's what it seemed like at the time. It took a few days to figure it out and realize I wasn't actually emotionally crazy, to figure out why I was actually upset.