I'm struggling again with my depression and it's so debilitating! I'm struggling to function at all. I'm in the hospitals iop program right now and it doesn't seem to be helping at all. I experienced my first time with disassociation last week and it was so hard...I felt like I was watching a movie of my life. Has anyone experienced that state of mind before? I'm so medicated I just shouldn't be depressed but bp can strike at any moment and that's the part that sucks ***. I feel so sad...nothing and I mean nothing brings me joy.[emoji29] I am so empty inside and my family tries to be there for me but they can't truly understand. Only you guys can. I try and use my skills but the only thing that really helps me is the deep breathing. I don't have any hobbies and I can't think of any to try. I do like to draw tho but I'm not that good at it. It's still fun to doodle. God help me! I want relief. I think I'm on the wrong anti depressant so I'm seeing me pdoc on Monday...I'm praying for some kind of relief. Sorry to be such a downer but I'm just breathing in and out. Anyone else relate?