Hi Rubybaby. My but you have had so many difficult things to deal with. No wonder you are hurting and depressed. If mama passed away on June 15 you are grieving a difficult loss that is very recent. As much as it is a painful loss the grief you are experiencing is normal. There is a certain process of grieving that people go through when you lose a loved one thru death. There is a forum here on loss and grieving you may find helpful. I remember when my father died of cancer the people at Hospice were very helpful to me with this issue. It still hurt. My mother died Sept. 16, 2009 and my father died Feb 5, 2010, 5 months later. It was rough.

I can identify so much with you, I am 52, have suffered from fibromyalgia and depression. I am glad you have been able to see a therapist. Perhaps your primary doctor can help in the area of medication until you can get an appointment with a psychiatrist. I know you are going thru a hard time right now, but you will pull thru this. Keep posting here. That is a start. There are many people on this forum who are caring and supportive. Meanwhile I have heard people say that in times like this sometimes its best to take things one day at a time and think, I can get thru this day. Wishing you all the best.