Well, well, well... I came back to the board after a three month self-imposed suspension (to focus on school) and when I saw this thread on top, my first reaction was: "Oh, no. Not again! He is still struggling."
I was so happy to read your news that wholly proved my suspicion wrong.
As for identity crisis I fully understand you. I am going through the same crisis except it was caused by external events. I will PM you about it.