Last week i had given my new t a written explanation of the different "sides" of me with the intention of talking about it today when I saw her. I was pretty anxious about it before hand, but when she started asking questions I completely froze up I'm pretty sure it triggered something because I was terrified.
So t has a concept of it, but I wasn't able to explain more.
I realized later that I should have asked her to ask about the less vulnerable aspects, but she went for the most scared one. Now I'm not sure if things are OK, or she's just trying to "placate" t coz she thinks t is scary. Trying to be a "good girl" and show t that I can complete the activity she asked me to do in session? Or finally feel like I can trust her a bit? (Questioning this because I left feeling like t was really mad at me over something I said. SJ tends to try to placate people if i think they are mad at me...).
Would it be inappropriate to leave a message for t saying I figured out how to fold the cranes? (Feels like the little kid side wants to tug at her coattails to show her we did good). Or should I just tell her next week?
Should I include that I'm feeling SJ really close, and feeling very vulnerable? Or do i again leave that for next week? (T is not available between sessions, and phone calls have not been useful in the past, so I would just be giving her info with no expectation of a call back).