I've been feeling increasingly agitated, increasingly depressed, and increasingly hopeless the past week. Today I just took a nosedive. I've been sleeping fitfully today. When I am awake, I cry. Otherwise I am an agitated mess of confusion, anger at myself, and depression. I know this place. I need to get out of it, but don't feel I have the energy to move.
My spouse keeps trying to "Cheer me up" which makes me feel even worse. As if I could be cheered up and just get better. Is it that easy? Am I just being a party pooper or is something wrong with me? I feel like I'm losing my mind, and she seems to think she can coax me out of this. It makes me feel worse. I just want to nurture myself, and distract myself. That is what feels the best to me right now. Thoughts?