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Sep 06, 2014, 08:23 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2014
Location: New Jersey
Posts: 98
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Thanks Guys! This has weighed heavy on my heart over the last several hours. This is the same cousin who physically, sexually, mentally abused me as a child. I don't even know why I'm wading back into this fire. I thought if I could be an adult... Look into the eyes of my abuser maybe it would show how far I've come and that I was over it. This TV thing is just a weapon she's using against me.  I see that now. I guess by throwing dirt on me it means what she did to me was not that bad and maybe I even deserved it.
I don't think I will ever be able to have a normal adult relationship with this person. I guess its time I stopped trying. It's so easy to get distracted by BS when the truth is really about something else. I've run and hid from this for so much of my life. In so many ways I blamed myself when I should have been loving myself. 
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"What kept me sane was knowing that things would change, and it was a question of keeping myself together until they did." ~ Nina Simone 
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