dude, you need a vaction, go to a psyc ward for a break, they might seem scary but go to a good one cuz it aint no good to be around sick people when your already sick, look for one thats at least prestiges, if u can afford it.

dude ur just 16, these are your adolescene, take it from me, its no easy phase for a lot of us, including me. i barely expierenced anything in my adolecence. in fact the rebellious fraction of this sensitive and yet instense phase of human life came to me in my 20's. i was smoking weed and off my meds doing crazy ****. you need a break from life dude. go somehwere far away if u have to.

talk to counselors, psychiatrists, therapists. try CBT, cognitive behaviorl therapy. i had a good one for that type of therapy, she was like my maternal figure for a while.

its ****ed up how ur parents dont give a **** man, my mom only wanted me to be safe cuz my bro died and im the 2nd son.

if **** dont lighten up, you might go insane. i think the moments of euphoria u explained are actually what they call mania. mood shifts that peak and plateue. super happy one hour, and left out to dry and be spent the next.

im a expert of this stage in life, cuz im still livin it! im 27 by the way. youth is forever. you dont have to live like this, theres light in the dark, just gotta reach it dude.

i love you man, take care for me, dont do nuttin rash and try not to overhaul or do things that stress you.

keep a journal, write in it like crazy if u have to. do things, make moves and take it easy!