I know it stinks to be in a bad funk.. when it's bad nothing can really help it out except yourself... and trust me I know easier said then done... I noticed one thing you said in there though. "My spouse tries to cheer me up".. that's something that can make you smile... my spouse has not truly been supportive at all. That makes me want to act out badly and it's so so hard not too... none the less that doesn't fix everything but be happy for him/her. They are a blessing.