And I'm mostly over the near-accident, but she mentioned I had PTSD the first time we talked about it because I was telling her how freaked out I was the day after. Then I looked up PTSD and I went back to her the next session and said no, PTSD is a DISorder and I was just naturally freaked out, something has to last weeks to be PTSD.

Just that I think was standing up for myself so I was proud She grudgingly agreed.

Then I had another car squirmish. A guy screeched to my right on the highway then passed me and then screeched to the front of me and I beeped in protest and he BRAKES completely in the middle of the fast lane of the highway (two weeks after the first one) and I brake and almost go spinning out again "Not AGAIN!" was my first thought and there was thankfully no median so I went off the shoulder into the gravel to stop and straighten myself. So that's when she said that, I think.

What's funny is that if I think someone is trying to get a rise out of me I get calmer and calmer lol If I think someone's trying to use reverse psychology on me (and I realize it) I just find the whole situation amusing and step back and analyze the situation and if their way is clever enough admire from a distance

When we first started (she's therapist 40 or so in the 18 years, I lost count after 30) something that came up during one of the first sessions was that you did NOT need to form a close bond with the therapist and just saying that took a huge load off my shoulders (You don't??? I thought I did! Whew! Was what went through my mind) and we ended up forming the bond anyway over the years.