My t and i have been on opposite sides of the world for a few years now due to a family situation thats been ongoing. The hardest for me is mot having her in person hugs and attention lile that. We too have late night, early morning, twice a day, five days a week, whatever we need to do thpe sessions. I miss her in person desperately.
At least i have gotten to see my t before she moved. I cant imagine how odd it is to have never seen your t.
Two years ago my t invited me to come visit her so i did. I stayed there a out two weeks and we hung out almost all day every day. It was just what i needed and it was so healing.
I think if you could go out to where your t is and even get together for lunch of coffee, that it might be really helpful and healing.maybe you could meet with her a couple of times? How would it feel to see how your t is in real life?