Thank you so much guys, it's so comforting to know i'm not the only one who does this. I feel like he'll not trust me in future if I admit I lied - like when he asked if i'm actively suicidal and I say no, what if he doesn't trust me so thinks i'm lying and puts me back on the ward? I guess for that reason I don't want to tell him I lied. Next time, I guess I should just be more honest.