Sometimes I almost wish I had this arrangement with my husband, just let him go and do his thiNG with other women, as long as it didn't mean anything and I never had to know about it, since I can't seem to get over my issues. I hate that I can't at least please him sexually. I feel terrible, like I'm the worst wife ever. The really bad thing is that i want to want sex so much. I've asked doctor after doctor if there was anything they could give me or do for me. Nope! Of course not. Because nobody cares if women have no sex drive, but God forbid men don't, the world stops turning on its axis until they find a cure! Men must have sex!!!! They must enjoy themselves. But women, well, heck, we've taught them to not enjoy themselves during sex for 1000's of years anyway, who cares if they still aren't enjoying themselves? So frustrating!