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Originally Posted by Mastodon
I think it is really interesting and might be worth exploring that you felt different from what you normally would have. To me, it sounds like progress, that you felt relief rather than guilt. I understand the frustration, though. I've been so pissed off at my T for not responding to txts.
I'm sorry you can't afford the session frequency you'd need... that sucks.  |
You know, I was just thinking that Mastodon. I think it is progress in a weird way.
For the first time, I feel entitled to feel how I feel. I don't feel "right" about my reaction but I feel entitled to how I felt. It's ok to feel what I did. I don't have to see it from anyone else's perspective. I don't have to be "good" for anyone.
Maybe it's also a sign of a secure attachment developing with my T that I can for the first time ever, be that angry and not really worry about it. Not be scared she's going to terminate me. I have confidence that if I want to go back, she'll be there, ready to help me thru it.