I've been reading all of this with quite some interest.

After years of therapy, I've not only come to realize, but to also accept responsibility for:

MY OWN SELF SABOTAGING BEHAVIORS!

If I'd have been some of my therapists, I'd have been pissed off at me too!

So, all I've got to offer is this ...

You want to disrespect yourself, your therapist and your process?

And then expect them to NOT get upset about it?

Really?

Wow!

Just, Wow!