Hello mirasanchez1321, welcome to Psych Central.
I'm wondering if the depression you have is making you feel this way. It is true that in order for things to change, you need to make that first step to get things moving. Motivation tends to get lost though with depression. It does not sound like your home situation helps your mental health at all and really the answer to that would be to move out. You can't move out unless you have a job, so the next step then would be to start looking for a job.
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