I am done. It's impossible to continue. The depression has gotten to me. It caught me.
On top of my depression the below is also suffocating me.

If my stress and nervousness would only be due to my work overload and responsibilites I would be able to deal with it. However the stress and tension is far worse at home. I can't go home every day to face a 'man' I wish I can murder. I can't go home every day to be ignored and invisible. I can't go home every day where I'm belittled to others. I can't go home every day and pretend everything is normal. I just can't. Perhaps I'm weak but I don't care, I can't do it anymore.

Work is over the top busy. I put in 13 hours a day instead of the supposed 8 hours. My concentration is slacking due to what's going on in my personal life (at home). My deadlines are just barely being met as I'm busy helping others with their deadlines. I absolutely don't mind helping them but it's not easy when I have many more deadlines and higher priority deadlines. (I'm directly under the CEO so) I keep telling myself I'm quitting the job. But I honestly don't want to. I enjoy the work.

I can't quit my home. I can't quit work. BUT I can quit life. And I hope to quit it asap.