I used to be jealous of people around, but I realized I am my own worst critic, quite frankly I don't know how I did it. Right now, I don't think I'd rather look like anyone else or be anyone else, but sometimes I do get jealous, it just doesn't last too long.

As for society, it is quite shallow, there are just too many people, and you simply don't have the time to learn everyone's personality (really get to know them) before you can judge them, so people simply do the best they can with what little time they can spend with a person, and they're quite eager to judge, so if that means judging someone just on appearance (as appearance is the first most obvious thing), so be it. I hate what the world has become, but it's the truth.

What kind of people have you surrounded yourself with, by the way? sometimes we have no choice, we don't get to choose the people around us, family, friends, but I think they're pretty shallow, awful people that have told you you're fat and ugly all your life. More likely, it is them who are ugly, if not in body, then in mind, and they want to hurt you, so they can feel good about themselves.

I am depressed, I can look pretty bad, but that's because I'm not taking good care of my appearance, I'm too down all the time to care about how I look, I just waltz out of bed, and the next thing I know, I'm in school, while all the other kids I know spend 30 minutes just to get ready and look their best. When you have low self esteem, you will only focus on the few 'faults' that you think you have and ignore the many positives about you.