((((((((((((((((((((((((((madmusician)))))))))))))))))))))))))
I know the feeling (as I'm sure we all do) very, very well. Sometimes it feels like everything is building up inside, ready to explode, and cutting is the only way to let it out.

As has been said... nobody's let down. We've all had relapses, all had moments when things just got to be too much. The fact that you're reaching out during those moments means you DO want to stop, you're doing everything you can to make it better, and you want help. For that, I am incredibly proud of you!! (and no, I'm not trying to sound condecending or anything--I mean it!)

Have you tried just throwing away all the things you use to cut? I know that there's always something in the house, but sometimes getting rid of the stuff you're familiar with can help break the pattern.

extra special luck&love,
~muse