Alison,
Thank you for your comment. I do agree it was an up for me! I have two appointments this week for my first time and I'm pretty anxious. Another member on here gave me some self improvement type books to try. I've felt better and kept doing research. Funniest thing I was outside sweating stepped in paint on the deck with my nice sandals...went to wash them off in the hose and the water rushed out randomly and quickly completely soaking my shirt half way down and shorts. For a millisecond I was upset then just began laughing. I'm holding onto this as a positive thing and keeping a smile on my face.
As far as my anxiety it gets pretty bad going new places, new people, alone, feeling judged stared at, all the noise and every little thing becoming noticeable and I just can't handle it and have to leave. I'm working on pushing the boundaries and it slowly has worked and other days complete disaster. These are things along with my depression and relationship issues I will be addressing with my T once I get in and comfortable talking.

Daycia