'o.O That's not too far off from how I've felt for a good while. The last relationship changed me in some weird way... now I'm terrified of it all. Scared to love, scared to open up, scared to be vulnerable, scared it's all going to be taken away, yet I'm starting to realise how much I miss feeling like I belong with someone, feeling love, feeling passion, feeling loved, etc. Each and every time you fall in love and it gets taken away, it's like part of you goes along with it... maybe I'm romanticizing it, but that's how it feels to me. I concur that counseling or therapy may help.