hi imajerk
ive been alone 14 years......look at your screen name...maybe its our perception of ourselves....my mom said no man would ever want me because I am fat...even though I have lost 60 pounds I still believe this...even though I see all these really large women with nice looking husbands come into work to prove different....welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome