I didn't want to start a whole new post about this but I really messed up again today. GRRRRR! I wish I could get myself under control. I KNOW I can do this. GRRRRRR I'm so frustrated with myself.
I told off my landlord and the plumber today. Why can't I just be a sea of calm? Why can't I just laugh~~hahahahaha~ why do I have to be such an undisciplined person who has to put my nasty little digs in? I knew better-I KNEW!!!! GRRR I am so mad at myself right now. I'm tired of having to keep apologizing. GRR, GRRRR, GRRRR!!!! New landlord-totally screwed that up. GRRRR!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!
I can't say GRRRRR enough!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have to try meditating. I have got to do something because I am out of control.
The plumber was nice about it when I apologized but he said he thought I was crazy. I wanted to tell him "YES! YES! You were right!!!!" But I didn't I just giggled a little and told him that I was upset about the toilet not flushing correctly for a whole week.
Grrrr. My landlord isn't writing me back. She's pissed. I don't blame her. I get on my nerves too. GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
Okay, I'm going to go breathe.