Does all of your family share your moms views? But I get how worrying about how they'll react can be hard to seek further help since you don't want their judgement...my family is not quite that extreme but still hard for me to talk to them about mental health stuff. But if you do end up actually planning on harming yourself I hope you can get the help you need....intolerant family or not you have to do what you have to, to stay safe.