Let me just say that there are no trivial reasons to be depressed. We don't have to have a reason to be depressed. We just "are". No explanation needed. I mean, we wouldn't explain why we have cancer or diabetes or even hemorrhoids. When we're depressed, it's because there's something wrong in our brain. It is not our fault. We didn't ask for it. It does not mean we're stupid or incompetent or lowly. We are often more hard on ourselves than anyone else could ever be. I try to look at myself (during those dark times) as a friend. Would I ever tell my best friend she's stupid? Of course not!

I just happen to be going through an "up" phase right now but there's always hope. Even as I type that, I don't entirely believe it but clearly, things have been much worse, just as they have been much better. I think it's all about balance.

I've never called a prevention hotline. But perhaps the one you've called wasn't the right fit. Are there others you can try? I've been very fortunate to have therapists to help me with that and a sister who is more of a saint than a sister.

Peace to you.