I feel like I'm cursed. No matter what I do, everything goes wrong. I've been trying to do well in school, I took the right number of credit hours and got the right grades, but then lost my scholarship anyways because I missed an asterisk that disqualified one of my classes. I had a crappy clunker of a car, bought a new one, it broke down, so got a loan to buy a much newer, better car that I told myself was worth the money because it would last longer and wouldn't be breaking down every month. Now that car is falling apart after less than a year. Everything seems to get in the way of me being with my boyfriend; our finances are too bad right now for us to live together and as much as I try to schedule our time so we have time together, someone always ends up needing to work or study. Even little things go badly. I'm living at home to save on money, and I have a sister who steals everything, ruins it, and denies it. If I buy something for myself to kind of cheer up or to reward myself for a hard working week, it disappears, no matter how well I hide it. Sometimes it will show up later, used up or destroyed. I know that seems really small but after a while it really starts to get extremely frustrating. I'm just tired and I want something to work out for once. I was raised to believe that if I worked hard, I could make a good life for myself. Well, I'm working hard all the time, and nothing goes right. I'm so tired.
I know life sucks all around and this was really whiny. I'm just kind of overwhelmed right now and breaking down a little bit. Thanks for reading.