Next week.. Urghhhhh. I was rushing/running home from the city with a massive tension headache but really wanting to go to my appointment (but knowing I would be about 20-25 minutes late), getting frustrated and wishing I could get through to their phone or that they would call me. Eventually she called and wanted to chat but I was on the freaking train and there were people around. I guess she at least said she was thinking of me though we would have to cancel, but I feel sad because her contract is ending in 2 months time and I am on limited time with her! The irony is that I was learning about, of all things, psychiatry in university which caused me to be late and have to cancel my session which is making me agitated and sad! In the past I guess I didn't care so much if it was cancelled but now knowing our sessions are almost ending I feel so upset about missing one. But my education is first priority :'(.

Does this not feel a bit counterproductive, that I feel like I'm so dependent on her and feeling anxious regarding not being able to explain my situation properly, or like maybe she thinks I don't care even though I do? I definitely see how she has helped me through my roughest times, but getting attached to someone like this is actually a bit painful sometimes especially knowing soon I'll never see her again.