Yeah, could be. I see what you're saying about the smalltalk, the smiles, and chivalry and all that, I can and do do that, almost like second nature. I did have to observe others doing it and then apply it to my situation, but I managed it. It's not that I'm talking about. It's gotten to the point where the world wants me to change my core structure, who I am, give up my identity, just to fit in. I'm sorry, but once you do that, you're lost forever in my book. People really hate me for just being different, I wish I could say I was imagining it (really, I mean it, I so wish it could be true), but I'm not. The only difference between adulthood and childhood was as a child other children told me they hate me and they wish I would die and go away forever. In adulthood, they still feel the same, but don't say it, they show it, and then dress it in a fake smile .