Jane, good job for not drinking, sorry you are going through all of this, people are cruel sometimes, but as hazelgirl said, your boy needs you. I know you are struggling with your emotions right now with, t and trauma talk. Usually when you are in the middle of trauma talk, I swear, **** seems to hit the fan, and everything that can go wrong seems to go wrong. I know you can handle it. Plus you always have our support here. T will not let you process trauma when there are other stressors in your life.