Hi TJ,
You should be giving yourself serious credit for picking up that phone!! That takes real strength so well done!!
And attention seeking..........if you must call it attention (I'd call it support!! ) then you absolutely 1000% deserve that attention. You're not weak for needing it, you're strong for reaching for it
And just over two weeks from discharge...........I'm sure you've had plenty of challenges/things to get used to/things to adapt to in that time and now, and even things that seem small can be big..........and functioning pretty well at times well that's a real achievement/ a real start/definitely something to work with.
And the periods that haven't been going well.........you may still need support, and there's nothing at all wrong with that...........even if you need a lot of support, OK??!!
And keep going on trying the distraction.......breathing techniques.......maybe very gradually working on spotting the signs to get them in much earlier might help just a little???
And just a thought.........but continuing with/focusing on the breathing techniques if you start them with so much going on in your head........the feelings.....the urges........has to be so hard, if not impossible at times, so do you think you/your T could cut a CD with those on for you to be trying to listen to (on your headphones??) amongst the barrage................??
Anyway........just a thought...........

And again.....well done on picking up that phone!!!!!
And thanks for sharing with us, hope it's helping talking about what's going on for you, remember we're here for you



Alison