Another thread got me thinking about the fact that I know very little about my therapist and that little that I know seems very cool. I know everyone has their own flaws/problems but I can't help feeling way behind in life than anyone else. It seems like there's a line between the whole world and me. Everyone can have happiness but me because I'm too screwed up. I'm stuck in time and in life. This is one of those moments I feel like I'm never going to achieve anything good, no matter how much I've improved and how hard I've worked. I miss my t this evening but I feel so small and wouldn't want to talk about this with anyone face to face. It feels like everyone is proceeding in life but me. I want a family too. I wish someone could take the time to know me as a person and love me a little bit but who wants a flawed thing.

Sorry. I've been feeling like this since 2 weeks. Old feelings that were triggered and exacerbated I guess.