Hi everyone,

It's been awhile since I've posted on here....my life has become incredibly intense. I think I'm losing my dissociation defense in a way, and that is bringing everything, good and bad, to life for me. Anyways....

Last session, I went in after having a sort of intense experience around a memory. Suffice to say, I had a very intense session where I spilled a lot of trauma related stuff and I cried (which I've never done before). My T tried to offer me comfort by moving the tissues near me but I wouldn't take one /: I did say thank you.....at the end of the session, it felt a little awkward.

I just feel so vulnerable now I guess....For a couple of days, I was worried that T was going to be mad at me but I recognized this as a cognitive distortion. It went away but now I feel so incredibly vulnerable. Like I want to hide my face. Or crawl in a hole....or rest my head on his shoulder

I'm worried this session or whatever will change our relationship in some way and I'm nervous about seeing him this week.

Anyone have any similar experiences or words of encouragement? I could really use some support....

Thank you