you make total sense......I worked to find positive things about me. started with one indisputable fact. so no matter how depressed I was, I couldn't say the good thing about me wasn't true. I started with that I was a good writer. no matter how bad I felt about myself I could not deny that I was a good writer. so when I said the negative things about myself, I could counter with the fact that I was a good writer to help myself feel a little bit better. eventually I found more indisputable facts. it was a way to build my self esteem so I didn't hate myself so much. take care.