I have 4 kids and 9 grandkids and I love them all the same. I tried never ever to make one feel inferior to the others. I wasn't a perfect parent, but I made sure they knew they were loved and important to me. I can't imagine a woman treating any child like that let alone their own offspring. Surely that is a mental illness it's self. I'm sorry you have suffered so much, Soul Flower. Hopefully now that you understand you can heal and have a happy life.