I am not sure if anyone else relates but I had an incident a few months back, too long to explain, but it made me realize my therapist and my p-doc do not care for my well being. It's a little scary, since I am supposed to trust that they are acting in my best interest. I had a depressive relapse and neither of them offered advice or guidance on how to get out of it. They just left me floundering about. I have been trying to continue therapy with the idea that it really does not matter if they care because part of me always knew this but it is getting harder and harder to talk to my therapist. The last two sessions were really difficult. One session i pretty much just sat there fighting back tears and unable to speak and the last session I could not think of what to say. I talked about work and other things that really did not have anything to do with therapy. So I basically went from feeling really connected with my therapist to feeling really distant. She actually seems cold to me now. I use to look forward to therapy but now I am actually dreading the idea. I thought about discussing it with my lcsw but I am a firm believer in actions speak louder than words so I don't think it will help.

Where i go, i have to see a therapist to continue seeing a p-doc. This seems a little odd since bipolar is generally treated with meds. I am thinking of changing to a nurse practitioner as oppose to a p- doc, since the p-doc has not been of much use to me. Then I will be free to quit therapy. I thought about trying another therapist but I don't know that I can feel comfortable with another therapist. There is something unsettling about paying someone who withholds info from you and whose success is based on deceit. Has anyone else had a similar experience not trusting mental health professionals and if so what actions did you take to correct the issue?