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Originally Posted by The Skeezyks
I think you may have answered your own question, Rust. You grew up to never get soft, to not show emotions. That kind of upbringing is hard to shake. Plus, since your family-of-origin was this way, it may be you have something of a genetic predisposition to this type of stoicism.
I'm an older person. And, when I grew up, this was the norm. You kept your problems to yourself & you didn't show emotion. Today's predilection for "letting it all hang out", as the saying goes, is really a pretty recent development historically speaking. The good thing is you are aware of your tendencies. So you can work with them over time. That is a big plus!
Of course, it is also possible you simply haven't found the right lady yet. Despite all of the amazing qualities this woman you've met has, maybe there's something missing. It's so hard to know. I think the best thing to do is to take your time with the relationship & see where it goes. "Love at first sight" may make for great chic flic's. But it isn't necessarily the best way to create a relationship that can last a lifetime. My best wishes to you!  |
I would love to work on them, but dont know how, i dont believe in psychologists, been to 6 before i was in high school. and they all were bull. Always going to the same question, how do i feel about the fact my dad left us when i was only 10 months old, for me, it doesnt bother me at all, he came back into my life when i turned 14 (he didnt want to deal with the child stage i guess)
Regarding not finding the right girl. She i believe is the perfect one for me, when people say she might not be the one for me, i go straight to angry, and all my previous girls, i never cared, but this one, i want her in my life. Shes good for me, she made me talk about my demons, My kinks, stuff i feel. why i think i feel a certain way. She's the only one ever who made me want to talk about it. But i haven't told her that i dont know how to emotionally feel affection, its easy to show (act) not to really feel it. i wrote that in a letter to her, still need to give it to her, but im scared it will scare her away, but she has told me countless times, theres nothing i can do that will scare her away, but i have this fear of rejection, that could be a subliminal thing from my dad, dont now.