Today I saw a new psychologist who asked me what about my life I'd like to improve, and what I'd like to be like when I got better. He also asked me what sort of career or life I'd like to have, and I honestly couldn't answer. I don't want a career, I don't want a happy life, I don't want to solve my problems. The thought of doing that terrifies me.

Can anyone else relate to the feeling of not wanting to get better? I know that isn't all of me, because I continue to struggle and search for ways to find help, but in therapy as well I keep getting held back by this major stumbling block - I can't imagine a me that's better, and I don't want to get there. Mostly, I want to lay down and sleep.