So I didn't know where to post this, but I decided here because I figure maybe it's an ASD thing (which I have been diagnosed with). Maybe someone here knows why this is or can relate, I don't know. Just wanted to put it out there after being inspired by another forum on here.

I consider myself very mature and fairly intelligent for someone my age. (21) But here's the thing. I, more often than not, find myself doing very childish things. Like, you know how when you're a kid, you make up imaginary worlds and you walk around and play pretend? I still do that. I pace back and forth very frequently, imagining fantasy scenarios and making sound effects (explosions, laser guns, etc...). I also find myself speaking in fake accents for no reason whatsoever, even if it was not my intention to do so. I often feel as if I'm two different people; on one hand, I am very cynical and angry and misanthropic but often at the same time, I find myself very optimistic and believing in the inherent goodness of people. Not sure if its relevant but I felt it went hand-in-hand.

I was just curious if anyone could relate or maybe explain and maybe it wouldn't be so strange if I knew it was a common thing? It may not even belong here but it seemed the most logical correlation. There is another much darker possibility for it I've considered from limited understanding but I'm choosing to leave that possibility out for now.