I've noticed a pattern in my life, Sometimes I think 'my day/week/month/year/life cannot get any worse'. I feel like it's all over, but if I decide to let things just pan out, and weather the storm, it ALWAYS gets better for me, and only when it gets better, do I realize I shouldn't have stressed out so much.
It's happened so many times that I'm learning from experience, every time it gets bad, there's a reassuring voice in my head that says 'it gets better'. last year, my ex roommate forced me out with his passive aggressive protesting, it hurt me a lot, and I thought we'd never be on speaking terms again, but then he apologized and regretted any hurt he may have caused me. It meant a lot, had he not apologized, I don't think I'd have been able to let it go, ever.
I can recall many other similar experiences where I couldn't see any light at the end of the tunnel, but I survived somehow. I thought I'd be forced to quit college last year, my problems were overwhelming, my health was failing, my grades were low, my attendance figures were low too, I lost a lot of hair, I lost weight, I had a dear friend who stopped speaking to me, I didn't have a place to stay, couldn't find one either, there was so much uncertainty in my life, I thought it was all too much to handle. I don't know how or why, but I survived, the only thing I can remember is saying this to myself "Let's just see how things go, and not expect the worst to happen."
I'm not doing great, but much better than early-mid 2014, some of the worst days of my life.
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