Thanks a bunch, but ummm...I don't know if happy and at peace would be the right way to describe it yet. It still hurts sometimes. I've just got so many triggers and it's not things I can predict, you know, what will and what won't trigger me. It's silly little things. It's like at university, I'll see a couple walking, holding hands and then I feel that hurt again, or I see a VW Polo (she used to drive one) and I think of her. I'm such a stupid person, why the hell does it even matter so much?